Today <3

This morning,, i woke up at 6 went on computer. I really cant get back to sleep. I just keep thinking about that thing. D; I really really really want to stop! And i was in bed until 9ish on my blog. posting a blog. *is the one below this post.*

Woke up still on msn. Talking to Alex. He asked me to go to city with him, he wants to buy boa poster. = =" he is totally in love with her. Then around 11:30 i had my piano lesson. Wow,, is getting hard. LOL. and i started pratice at 11:00 seriously i cant concentrate. Im angry at myself.

After piano, i realised is 12:00 PM. so i hurried and get change to meet alex at bh. we tried to call everyone in our phone list. but like everyone is having tuition! LOL. And yeash we met up with sam. We were like aguring about either going to city or Sing K. rofl. And we wasted like 3 hours waiting for people to come. Me and Sam and alex went to Timeout. I was like cheering for them LOL. for sam you suck. ><"" then we went to internet cafe playing pool. i realised im not bad after all. it was really funny. anyway me and alex finally decided to sing k with ppl. I WAS LIKE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i dont want to go! when we got there. i keep asking alex. lets go city! and he is like 'are you serious? we already came in' anyway yeah. i really want to see 'him' but i raelly dont want to see 'him'. ><" anyway like around 5pm. 'he' went home. i was like sooooo sad. i dont know why. we didnt talk much but why do i still feel sad? wtf is wrong with me?! i just feel so depress i want to cry. my heart was sooo uncomfortable. && the most horrible thing is. All the songs they sang was alll sad. it all describe what happened.! i really want to cry! and i miss him. D; D; i really dont know what i am thinking about.... WHY DO I KEEP HAVING A FEELING THAT HE WILL BE BACK!!! i know it wont happen! but why.....!!! anyway after i sang so many songs with alex and sam and other ppl. LOL.

This convo with Alex :
Me: ' Does my voice sound bad' Alex: ' No. Normal '
Me: 'But i think my voice is crap, was i using my real voice?'
Alex; 'Yeash '
Me: 'Did i improve my singing? From last time '
Alex: ' Yeash you sang louder and yeash you did improve'
Me: ' LOL.'

and yeash alex's mum took me home like around 7 pm. :D thanks alex. I hope i didnt bother your mum. D; Got Home. Went on MSN. blogged this & 1 on my wretch. I didnt know why i blogged on my wretch well cause dogegg added me. so i went on my wretch and add him back and i also checked the population. WOW. i was suprised. I never go on wretch i hardly blog. Why is there still many people coming to my blog. LOL. so yeah. ><><" alex is not you. you know it :D

My day end here. <3
I hope Things will get better!